hmm… i’m thinking how to get started. gee… such a lousy brain. just done w/ my shift so expect this to happen. well, i dunno. not in the mood to write but i wanna write (?) i don’t get it either.

hmm… lemme think. special things that happened to me these past few days? i went home last 15th to attend my sis’ graduation. i’m happy for her, but at the same time kinda worried coz she’s now has to worry about finding a job. i trust her to find one. my sis is smart, mana sa ako. even smarter coz she’s confident & a people person, which am not. i am, but not much. anyway, she’s a grown up & finding work after school is normal, so i know she can take care of that herself. i don’t want her to be like me who, until now, doesn’t know what i want to happen in my life. i got plans, but i’m too lazy to make them happen. in fairness to myself though, it’s never easy to say i don’t like my work, i wanna resign & get a new job right away. life is such as complicated as others say it’s simple. ironic, i know.

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on a positive note, aside from being happy that my sis is done with her studies, i was also glad to have a reunion with my bestfriends, Carenne & Twit2x. we haven’t seen each other since i left cdo almost 2yrs ago. Ca is now officially a nurse. Twit is a plant manager in Davao. I’m so proud of them. kahilak sad tag gold. hehehe…seriously, i’m happy for them. urghhh… basta ako, il make sure before i reach 30 na kasabot nako sa akong gusto sa kinabuhi. i want a definite career (ey, dat sounds boring) but… ambot oi. kapoi huna-huna what to do. que sera sera… whatever will be, will be. mediocre! one thing’s for sure, i don’t wanna work in a call center again.

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i enjoyed my very short stay sa balay. when i went back to work, i got my CITE form from my sup coz i "decided" to go absent from work for a day. dats an overshare but getting that violation for having spent another day with my family is worth it. at this time, i have less interest in maintaining my stats. working in a call center as an agent is never a career for me. i can’t see myself taking in calls for the rest of my life. no way! il be damned if i will.

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this was the song i was listening to while i was typing this entry… sawi na sad nga kanta.. hehehe.. :

Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.

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mao ra ni for today… just miss writing something sa ako blog. gutom na ko so i have to go home now. i’m starving. hehehe… belated happy easter (egg)!