[Chorus:]
I’m not a girl,
Not yet a woman.
All I need is time,
A moment that is mine,
While I’m in between.

isn’t this familiar? u bet. not much of Britney’s fan but this song has some sense. at least, for me. do u know about the so-called "quarter-life-crisis?"

a quarter is one fourth of a whole. or 25%. assuming that i will reach 100yrs in this lifetime, that means i have 2 more yrs before my 25th bday. hmm… is it amazing? i mean, the way how people count their days on earth.

but it’s besides my point. point is i don’t feel like i’m mature already to call myself a woman. but i can’t call myself a girl still because at this very point in my life, i know how to discern right from wrong (in some situations). and i can decide for myself (in again, some cases).

so i know i deserve a credit for being independent. i know i deserve a pat on my back being 50% mature to handle my life.

my father told me once, life isn’t a race. i’m still young. got lot of things to learn. life isn’t easy. just have to strive hard and be patient. ok… so i have to be patient. and to be patient, that means i have to wait. but for how long? a smart individual knows how long he’s got to be patient. i’m not trying to be a smartass. i’m trying to be smart coz bottomline is, i am on my own. no one can help me but me.

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by the way, got this email from a friend. nice article to reflect on.

It’s FUN being a GIRL…but being a WOMAN is even BETTER!!! Ü

A Girl sees her imperfections. A Woman celebrates her uniqueness.

A Girl looks in the mirror & obsesses about what’s wrong with her. A Woman checkd her reflection to confirm the fact that she’s looking her best. A Girl piles on makeup to hide her flaws; a Woman accentuates her best assets. Girls will ask how they look every 5 mins. Women are smart enough to know when it truly matters. Girls need to have every guy like them, even if they don’t like him. Women are suspicious of, & have no need form excessive flattery. A Girl will ride on & copy every fashion trend that comes along. A Woman already has her own personal style that she merely improves on with what’s new.

A Girl lives only for love. A Woman lives her own life even when in love.

A Girl leaves her schedule wide open & waits for a guy to call & make plans. A Woman makes her own plans, & if a guy calls, fits him into her plans if she can. Girls freak out if biys don’t return a phone call. Women are too busy to realize they hadn’t. Girls get into catfights to get a guy. Women stand back & let the guy do the choosing, knowing that if he’s smart, she will be picked. Girls want to control the men in their lives. Women know that if he’s truly hers, he doesn’t need controlling. Girls try to monopolize all their man’s time. Women know that a little bit of space makes ‘together time’ even more special!

A Girl dreams. A Woman makes it happen.

A Girl builds on the perfect image of success in her head. A Woman can’t wait to get there, & acts today to get 1 step closer to her goals. When faced with failure, Girls blame everyone but themselves for their shortcomings. Women own up to their mistakes & work to fix them. When asking for what they want, Girls expect others to read their minds. Women know that if they wait for you to ask, you might never get around to doing it. When faced with difficult tasks, Girls will need rescuing. Women discern that it’s time to step up & be the hero. A Girl will rest on her laurels. A Woman will top what she just accomplished by challenging herself to be better.

A Girl creates the drama that a Woman hates.

Girls are excitable & easily bored. Women long for the humdrum to cap off their hectic day. Girls gimmick to paint the town red & meet new, exciting people. Women do so to touch base with friends over dinner & a nightcap. Girls make mountains out of molehills. Women have better things to do with their time. Girls fan the flames of controversies. Women douse the unnecessary drama. Girls speak badly of other girls behind their backs. Women don’t feel threatened by other women & even sincerely compliment other women themselves. Girls gossip so they are in the loop. Women find other ways to bond with friends without hurting other people’s feelings.