The Bottom Line

Even if you don’t have a sweetheart right now, today is going to be full of romance. 

In Detail

Even if you don’t have a sweetheart right now, this day is going to be full of romance for you! So if you’re not going to be falling in love with another person all over again, you’ll be falling in love with yourself all over again — which might feel ten times as sweet. You are a wonderful person, and even if there’s no one in your life right now to remind you of that fact, you can remind yourself. It’s a nice powerful feeling to remind yourself how special you are.

===> bottomline isssssss……. ouch! ako na lng ani mg-ayom2x.puslan mn way ngmahal, beer pa day!. this is what’s posted on my horoscope today (sept 17, 2008). ahak lng! ana d i na ha. hmp! fine. bakak jud ning horoscope ay.

just quick update about my life & wat happened these past months while I was hibernating…not much. as i don’t see my life very interesting. hehe… still working in a call center. yep. working. working. and working. w/c sucks by the way.

i was expecting someone to arrive this month but unfortunately, that person’s an asshole. hehe… at least, finally, he’s been honest that he’s indeed a big, fat liar. it’s a paradox. by him deciding to forget me, and ending all his lies, he’s being honest. for the first time, he has. sad that for two years, i believed in him. boyz… boyz… boyz… really are liars. anyway… end of discussion. like i care. of course i care! damnit!

oh well… aside from that, nothing special happened. same old boring life. haven’t gone on a gimmick anymore. and i hate it every time i pass by LOFT. some disco/restro bar. masyadong sosyal mga tao. i don’t like their kind of music. reminds of pasosyal na sinungaling na bwst na lalaking un. anyway. un lng.

hv to go back to work now. got til 10am. and off i go. ohhh been reading books by the way. w’c is very unusual of me.

This is my blog. my journal. mine. so whatever you read here are based on my own definitions & thoughts. if you don’t agree, that’s what comments are for. if u really feel u don’t really agree, then shut up. hehehe… martial law eto

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oh, what about this picture? isn’t it great? very meaningful and touching. few words but it shows a lot about how people should live life. it’s about faith in that SOMEONE. it’s about sacrifice. about love.

and speaking of faith… how can you differentiate having faith from believing someone? may be not really a tricky question. i attended mass before. Gospel was all about faith, but i can’t exactly remember what the priest said. I was, most probably, sleepy that time as usual.

maybe faith got something to do with invisibility. hehe… and believe, a verb which means to consider to be true or honest or to to accept the word or evidence of (courtesy of AOL KW:dictionary). hmm… why do i even have to bother thinking about it? basta. may be it’s all about what true, what’s real, what’s visible (or invisible). watever.

isn’t this familiar? u bet. not much of Britney’s fan but this song has some sense. at least, for me. do u know about the so-called "quarter-life-crisis?"

a quarter is one fourth of a whole. or 25%. assuming that i will reach 100yrs in this lifetime, that means i have 2 more yrs before my 25th bday. hmm… is it amazing? i mean, the way how people count their days on earth.

but it’s besides my point. point is i don’t feel like i’m mature already to call myself a woman. but i can’t call myself a girl still because at this very point in my life, i know how to discern right from wrong (in some situations). and i can decide for myself (in again, some cases).

so i know i deserve a credit for being independent. i know i deserve a pat on my back being 50% mature to handle my life.

my father told me once, life isn’t a race. i’m still young. got lot of things to learn. life isn’t easy. just have to strive hard and be patient. ok… so i have to be patient. and to be patient, that means i have to wait. but for how long? a smart individual knows how long he’s got to be patient. i’m not trying to be a smartass. i’m trying to be smart coz bottomline is, i am on my own. no one can help me but me.

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by the way, got this email from a friend. nice article to reflect on.

It’s FUN being a GIRL…but being a WOMAN is even BETTER!!! Ü

A Girl sees her imperfections. A Woman celebrates her uniqueness.

A Girl looks in the mirror & obsesses about what’s wrong with her. A Woman checkd her reflection to confirm the fact that she’s looking her best. A Girl piles on makeup to hide her flaws; a Woman accentuates her best assets. Girls will ask how they look every 5 mins. Women are smart enough to know when it truly matters. Girls need to have every guy like them, even if they don’t like him. Women are suspicious of, & have no need form excessive flattery. A Girl will ride on & copy every fashion trend that comes along. A Woman already has her own personal style that she merely improves on with what’s new.

A Girl lives only for love. A Woman lives her own life even when in love.

A Girl leaves her schedule wide open & waits for a guy to call & make plans. A Woman makes her own plans, & if a guy calls, fits him into her plans if she can. Girls freak out if biys don’t return a phone call. Women are too busy to realize they hadn’t. Girls get into catfights to get a guy. Women stand back & let the guy do the choosing, knowing that if he’s smart, she will be picked. Girls want to control the men in their lives. Women know that if he’s truly hers, he doesn’t need controlling. Girls try to monopolize all their man’s time. Women know that a little bit of space makes ‘together time’ even more special!

A Girl dreams. A Woman makes it happen.

A Girl builds on the perfect image of success in her head. A Woman can’t wait to get there, & acts today to get 1 step closer to her goals. When faced with failure, Girls blame everyone but themselves for their shortcomings. Women own up to their mistakes & work to fix them. When asking for what they want, Girls expect others to read their minds. Women know that if they wait for you to ask, you might never get around to doing it. When faced with difficult tasks, Girls will need rescuing. Women discern that it’s time to step up & be the hero. A Girl will rest on her laurels. A Woman will top what she just accomplished by challenging herself to be better.

A Girl creates the drama that a Woman hates.

Girls are excitable & easily bored. Women long for the humdrum to cap off their hectic day. Girls gimmick to paint the town red & meet new, exciting people. Women do so to touch base with friends over dinner & a nightcap. Girls make mountains out of molehills. Women have better things to do with their time. Girls fan the flames of controversies. Women douse the unnecessary drama. Girls speak badly of other girls behind their backs. Women don’t feel threatened by other women & even sincerely compliment other women themselves. Girls gossip so they are in the loop. Women find other ways to bond with friends without hurting other people’s feelings.

Prechell G. Casing

November 22, 2004

Youngblood

What lies ahead…

Of the ten million jobs Pres. Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo promised in her   10-point pro-poor agenda, how many of those would be available for development communication students?  Or a more basic and simpler question to ask, will the devcom graduates be able to work right after graduation?

It is always assumed that graduating students will hunt for jobs after receiving their diplomas to either make use of their course or to help their own families in their finances, the latter being the primary reason.

However, in evaluating the present employment rate in the Philippines, only 31.6 million have work as of July this year with a meager increase of 5.7 percent employed persons in the agricultural sector.

Is the meager increase a sign of improvement?

The unemployment rate, on the other hand, was estimated at 11.7percent or slightly more than two million individuals with around 46.6 percent of them aged 15-24 years old.

Indeed, the figures speak that there are more employed than unemployed persons.  Yet, it is only limited to telling as such without elaborating the real score.  Some of them may have work but are underemployed with salaries that are insufficient to enable them and their families to live decently.

Improvement is defined as the act of improving; advancement or growth; promotion in desirable qualities; progress toward what is better.  The comparison of the figures does not support such definition of improvement.

There remains the sad fact that the minute growth in the employment rate does not guarantee the incoming graduates of better jobs or at least a job.

What then would be the possible scenario if this school year’s senior students graduate?

The two-million-record will surely increase by some percent.  That is if the government would fail to provide what it had promised to fulfill.

So what would then be the future of the potential development workers?  What is in store for them?

A development communication teacher in a university was saddened when she met one of her former students who is now studying nursing in another university.  She asked her why she decided to do so.  The student replied:  “I am planning to have a family of my own.  I want to feed them and give them decent lives.”

Such dialogue shows the insecurities that some devcom students have with the course they had chosen to tread.  They are uncertain if they will be able to find many opportunities that will provide justification for the four years (or more) that they spend in college.

All of us do dream of living better lives.  Who else do not?

Many of these devcom students dream of living as such that is why they are in search of that greener pasture.  That is also why many of them want to join the exodus heading to foreign continents, the Filipino Diaspora.

They think Mang Juan could no longer provide the fulfillment of their dreams and so, off they went to Uncle Sam to ask for the same favor.

Yet, what they do not seem to see is the other alternative other than leaving the country. 

The pathetic situation of the Philippines and its immediate localities alone posts a lot of job vacancies. The Philippines, in fact, is highly in need of development workers that will help the country to lift itself from the mire, from poverty. 

It is in need of solid work force to obtain what it hopes of a developed Philippines – a work which is very devcom. 

Of the ten million jobs that Arroyo said, there is more to it for devcom students.  Mang Juan is more in need of them than Uncle Sam.

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i was just checking my mails in yahoo when i saw this stored under my draft folder. i found it so strange that i was able to write this before. not because it was written in at least more organize manner, but because i just found it not-so-me. this piece makes sense & it means a lot to me coz it signifies the me before, of who i used to be — a person of content. if you’ve been reading my entries recently, you’ll notice the huge difference. it’s like reading the thought of two different persons. multi-personality disorder. toinks! hehe… nice try

hmm… lemme think. special things that happened to me these past few days? i went home last 15th to attend my sis’ graduation. i’m happy for her, but at the same time kinda worried coz she’s now has to worry about finding a job. i trust her to find one. my sis is smart, mana sa ako. even smarter coz she’s confident & a people person, which am not. i am, but not much. anyway, she’s a grown up & finding work after school is normal, so i know she can take care of that herself. i don’t want her to be like me who, until now, doesn’t know what i want to happen in my life. i got plans, but i’m too lazy to make them happen. in fairness to myself though, it’s never easy to say i don’t like my work, i wanna resign & get a new job right away. life is such as complicated as others say it’s simple. ironic, i know.

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on a positive note, aside from being happy that my sis is done with her studies, i was also glad to have a reunion with my bestfriends, Carenne & Twit2x. we haven’t seen each other since i left cdo almost 2yrs ago. Ca is now officially a nurse. Twit is a plant manager in Davao. I’m so proud of them. kahilak sad tag gold. hehehe…seriously, i’m happy for them. urghhh… basta ako, il make sure before i reach 30 na kasabot nako sa akong gusto sa kinabuhi. i want a definite career (ey, dat sounds boring) but… ambot oi. kapoi huna-huna what to do. que sera sera… whatever will be, will be. mediocre! one thing’s for sure, i don’t wanna work in a call center again.

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i enjoyed my very short stay sa balay. when i went back to work, i got my CITE form from my sup coz i "decided" to go absent from work for a day. dats an overshare but getting that violation for having spent another day with my family is worth it. at this time, i have less interest in maintaining my stats. working in a call center as an agent is never a career for me. i can’t see myself taking in calls for the rest of my life. no way! il be damned if i will.

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this was the song i was listening to while i was typing this entry… sawi na sad nga kanta.. hehehe.. :

Teardrops On My Guitar lyrics

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.

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mao ra ni for today… just miss writing something sa ako blog. gutom na ko so i have to go home now. i’m starving. hehehe… belated happy easter (egg)!

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Weeks ago, I got a text message from Carenne (one of my beAstfriends, kapamilya, kapuso, kachuva-ek-ek). She told me: "Hoi! I read your blog. Although you’re now better in expressing your thoughts, your (English) grammar has deteriorated."

Ok. That’s an ouch! Hahaha… but really, I appreciate her telling me that. That was a very honest comment coming from a real friend. Thanks Ca :)  I believe I need that to make gising myself (hahaha… I can’t even find the approriate words to use… so cono… ew!).

Although I knew she was just trying to cheer me up with her humour, I was kinda embarrass. I took journalism as my major subject in college. And that made me sooooo… un na nga, embarass. Hehehe… tsk tsk tsk…

Good thing I brought with me my Elements of Style booklet. I think it’s necessary for me to review what I’ve learned before. The problem is, I’m lazy. Can I just swallow the pages and make sure I get those lessons stick into my brain?

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I’m already excited going back home. My sis is about to graduate from college this coming March. That’s barely less than a month from today. Got several plans what to do. I hope (crossing my fingers) ‘ll be able to take at least 5days off from work. Wish ko lang I’m planning to visit Mafia and Mama Jace, and also Carenne and Twit2x. Missu u guys so much. Charing!

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And speaking of my sis graduating from college, it just reminded me of some things. I’ve turned 23 last January. My sis is about to turn 21 (?), my little bro into 18 (?). Huhuhuhu… While I’m happy coz our parents have raised us properly bisan lisod japon mi financially, the thought that we’re all grown ups somehow saddens me. Weird, i know. Dli na babies ako mga manghod.